I’m Christian and I’m Running Out of F**ks to Give
Exposing the Modern-Day Pharisee Spirit — Are We Following Jesus or Farming Engagement?
I’m a Christian—and I’m running out of f**ks to give.
Yep. I said it.
And no, I don’t care.
Honest confession:
Somewhere along the way, I started worrying more about metrics and numbers than I did actually ministering to the subscribers and followers I already had.
Yeah.
That was dumb.
When you lose sight of the mission, everything gets heavy. Fast.
And when you treat it like that, the work becomes hollow.
So yeah, I’m tired.
And I don’t mean burnt out or discouraged.
Just done pretending.
Here’s what I mean: the performance. I’m finished with it. Completely.
You know the story in the Bible where Cain brings God a sacrifice and it gets rejected?
Yeah.
That’s this.
I’m Cain in that moment—not Abel.
And the unacceptable sacrifice isn’t crops or blood.
It’s obsession with Substack growth, numbers, and validation dressed up as faithfulness.
It looks spiritual and sounds disciplined—But it misses the heart entirely.
And that’s the rot underneath the Christian internet:
Acting holy while playing the same money games as everyone else.
I’m done offering sacrifices God never asked for.
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I’m Done Wearing the Christian Mask
I’m tired of having to be nice.
Not kind.
Nice.
The kind of nice that keeps you quiet while you’re mistreated—
where honesty gets labeled “unloving,” boundaries get called “bitterness,”
and disrespect hides behind public smiles.
I’m tired of being told to soften my words when what people really want is for me to shut up.
No more watered down messages.
Jesus didn’t die so we could cosplay righteousness and call it maturity.
Let’s Be Honest About the Christian Internet
Everyone’s chasing the dollar.
Newsletters. Podcasts. Platforms.
Funnels. Scarcity. “Free” truth that somehow deepens once you pay.
Look—I’m not anti-paying writers.
I’m anti-lying.
Let’s stop pretending this is all ministry:
Outrage converts.
Fear sells.
Conviction packaged just right keeps people subscribed.
Truth doesn’t need funnels and the Holy Spirit doesn’t need a sales page.
When the gospel becomes a product, something’s already broken.
Bought Audiences and Empty Rooms
Here’s the quiet part nobody likes saying.
Some Christian influencers didn’t grow an audience.
They bought one.
Thousands of subscribers and clean profiles but almost no engagement.
Two likes.
One comment.
Silence.
Jesus never measured fruit by numbers.
We do.
And it shows.
“Let’s Collaborate”… Until You’re Smaller Than Me
Collaboration?
Yeah. That’s funny.
Everyone loves collaboration—
until their subscriber count passes yours.
Then suddenly:
• Messages stop getting answered
• “Brotherhood” turns into silence
• You’re beneath them now
If collaboration is based on metrics instead of faithfulness, it’s not ministry.
It’s networking.
Jesus didn’t choose disciples based on reach.
Who Christian Influencers Actually Support (Quietly)
Here’s another truth that exposed the whole game for me.
You know who many Christian influencers are quietly supporting?
Not other Christian influencers.
Not Christian entrepreneurs.
Definitely not the smaller guys trying to build something honest.
They’re paying for secular influencers.
Paid subscriptions.
Private newsletters.
Big-name thinkers with clout.
And look—there’s nothing wrong with learning from secular voices.
That’s not the issue.
The issue is this:
They’ll financially support secular creators with big names…
while ignoring faithful Christian voices doing the same work—
because there’s no brand upside.
Christian entrepreneurs? Naahhh
Too small.
Too risky.
No leverage.
So the money flows upward to power, not sideways to brothers.
This is not discernment.
It’s self-preservation.
Biblical Masculinity Became a Business
The “biblical man” movement didn’t escape this either.
Masculinity got branded, packaged, and sold.
Jesus didn’t build men by inflating their ego.
He crucified it.
Biblical manhood isn’t loud.
It’s obedient and it doesn't need an audience, just a prayer closet.
Jesus washed feet—He didn’t build a brand.
Jesus Wouldn’t Be Dining With Christian Influencers
Here’s the irony nobody wants to face.
If Jesus showed up today, He wouldn’t be sitting at a podcast table with Christian influencers debating theology for engagement.
He’d be eating dinner with entrepreneurs….even the money-hungry ones.
Why? Because they’re honest.
Jesus didn’t rebuke people for wanting money.
He rebuked people for loving money while pretending to love God.
Tax collectors knew what they were about.
Pharisees hid greed behind Scripture.
Jesus could work with honesty.
He always has.
I’m Not Walking Away — I’m Stripping It Down
I still love Jesus. Maybe more than ever.
I just don’t love the machine built around Him.
I’m done pretending numbers equal fruit.
Done confusing silence with wisdom.
Done mistaking platforms for authority.
If that costs me followers, fine.
If it costs me loss of subscribers, so be it.
Jesus didn’t promise a platform.
He promised a cross.
One Last Question Before You Scroll
Are you following Jesus…
or are you following people who figured out how to sell Him?
Because one leads to life.
The other just keeps the system running.
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Call to Repentance
If you’ve been trying to earn your way into heaven, it’s time to stop striving and start surrendering. Today can be the day everything changes.
The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 6:2, “Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.”
Don’t wait for a better moment. Turn from your sin, believe in the finished work of Jesus Christ on the cross, and receive the gift of eternal life.
He is calling—respond to Him today.
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I love this man. Honest, raw, and truthful. People struggle with the muck of life. The under side of the rock. They want to pretend it doesn't exist, but that's not how we move through suffering.
The only way is head on and with Christ at the helm.
I've been feeling a similar shift. Let it rip. Let the Spirit of the Lord pour through you. People will always be upset by this.
Honor Scripture and test your teaching against that. Its the way we stay on the narrow.
Real fellowship and discipleship is made in wrestling through the hard things together, not running from them.
I commend you. 🙏💪
You’re touching on a growing frustration, Thomas. And good for you for not pulling punches.
The problem is the McLuhan maxim: “The medium is the message.”
Substack, being a form of social media, is inherently self-promoting, and its very structure poses a challenge for Christians who are both self-aware and committed to the Kenotic ethic.
I’ve been sitting with this tension for a while, and I’m glad to see you are too.